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151: One hundred fifty one.  Sixty seconds is forever. Heartbeats are real, son.  Shadow: I just saw shadow. She had to point out your nose. Now I see your tiny face. Reality I believe you're there. I did before little one But now it's really real.  As an expectant father, it seemed surreal to me until today. Obviously, there are signs that tell me that this is reality, but before today, the ultrasounds were grainy and I'd equate the kicks to an unknown etiology. But today, when the sonographer rendered your face in to something recognizable and I saw the way your heart beat? That was real. 

For you, my son, I want: Love: I want you to know unconditional love. Pride: I want you to be proud of who you are. Understanding: I've never been great at understanding. Seek first to understand, then to be understood.  To know disappointment: but to learn and grow from it. To know how to utilize fear; let it be part of the toolbox. To know and love music. To be in touch with your emotions. To ask for help and open up when you need it. You'll always have a confidant in me.  To train yourself physically. I never realized the importance of body until I had done much damage. Treat your "vehicle" well and know that with hard work it is capable of great feats. Train yourself mentally. The human brain is also capable of great things and is of the utmost importance.  To know and understand your spiritual self. The trifecta of body, mind and spirit will make you the best you. To know true happiness.  To ask for help. With what you want. With what you need....