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A toast.

So there's a gentleman in my life that I admire very much, I've never had the balls to directly tell him, but this is my way of doing so. 

I became acquainted with this gentleman about a year and a half ago. In that time, he, and many of his acquaintances have changed my life.  

I'm relatively certain that I annoy him, and with good reason.  I think that he sees the potential within me and realizes that often times, I sell myself short.  Under the guise of self preservation, I excuse myself for many things and he, being many years my senior, and likely out of experience, sees right through this tactic.  This past week, I took a vacation from work, and I did some things I needed to do.  I rested, I relaxed.  I meditated, and contemplated where to go at this crossroads in my life.  I normally hesitate to take action, but this time, I did.  It felt good, and it felt empowering.  

This new sense of direction gave me some power.  Power to do what I needed to do.  No excuses.  I couldn't do exactly what I wanted to do, so, with the help of one of our mutual acquaintances, I scaled what I needed to do.  Broke it down in to something manageable  The next day, I came in and did what I needed to do again.  This time I did not scale, and, better hit a PR (personal record).  And today, I scaled, but I did it again.  I got the work done that I needed to do, and having done it, I felt accomplished and proud of myself. 

Perhaps I'm taking liberties, but, I see you, and what you've accomplished and done, and I see myself. A bit different timeline, but, ultimately, similar experience.  Thanks for what you've already taught me and, hopefully I can get out of my bullheaded, arrogant head long enough to continue to learn. 


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